the journey is fuzzy

when i was in high school i had amazing vision and drive. sure, it was naive, but i forged ahead making far fetched dreams reality.

i've lost that courage. i've never been one to regret or long for the past, mostly i appreciate the process of growing older.

but this plateau or rut or whatever the fuck you want to call it sucks. today i long for some of that spark i had when i was 18.

(not that i'd ever want to BE 18 again, ever.)


Anonymous said...

I'm ashamed to say that I was a pretty apathetic and undriven high schooler, but now that I've just turned 20 and started university, hopefully I undergo a nice change of direction.
Hope you get over it soon :)

EmilyQ said...

don't get me wrong, i was no star student... fairly average, actually. i just had the balls to attempt things out of the norm... out of my comfort zone.

but thanks, i hope to hit bottom soon so i can get on with life, too.